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Every day I sit in my chair looking out of this window
A prisoner in my own home
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Kept under lock and key
by processes and procedures
and being a number, an abstract, not a person

If you follow me elsewhere, you’re probably aware that I am currently housebound. I’ve been this way for six months. The first four months were because I lived in a house with a step so I couldn’t get my electric wheelchair out and I can’t go far without it. I could only leave the house with someone strong enough to get it out and then back in when I was done. Or with someone who can push the manual wheelchair.

I have since moved house. There are no steps. There is instead a really really heavy front door which I can’t open. So once again, I’m stuck unless someone is there to open it when I leave and return. And as I’m not getting all my care hours, this is rare. I can leave with my carers in the morning but I don’t have a reliable way of getting back in until they return at night.

I realise I’m lucky in many ways, I’ve moved, I have a wheelchair and I can get out the flat with help. And the council has assured me they’ll put a door opener on it.  Many are not so lucky. And often, it’s down to ridiculous policies or situations. Such as not enough accessible housing.  Such as you can’t have an electric wheelchair if you can get around your flat without it. Without paying thousands for my chair, I’d be in that situation – you can move around at home but can’t go out because you can’t get anywhere.  Such as not providing care support to help you leave the house.


Meet my cameras: Part 2

Let’s get the digital cameras out the way before we move onto the film ones.  As well as my Nikon D40, I have a point and shoot Nikon Coolpix which doesn’t get much use these days (I like to have it when I’m away as it pops in a bag more easily when you’re out at night) and a Nikon D5500 with 18-140mm lens.

Nikon D5500


This was a BIG upgrade to my D40 but I think we can be safe that photography isn’t a short lived phase for me… It’s got all the things you’d expect of a modern digital SLR but most importantly for me, it was one of the lighter ones available at time of purchase and it has a flip out back screen which can be used as a live view screen.  This means I can take photos from angles I couldn’t otherwise reach as I can no longer crawl around the floor (boo, hiss).

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Without wanting to sound like it’s not a great camera, there isn’t much more to say really.  If you want to find out about spec and performance there’s 101 sites online you can turn to.  It’s a great camera with all the familiar features of the D40 and various additional ones.  I’d expect nothing else from a modern DSLR.

autumn walk

“Oh I do like to be beside the seaside…”

Yes, even on a bitterly cold Monday in January.  A couple of weeks ago, my lovely carer and I headed to the east yorkshire coast for a day out.  It was… bracing.  Read as bitterly cold, biting our ears and blowing any cobwebs far far away.  But she was very patient as I got out my cameras and starting snapping away.

We started in Hornsea where the sea was right up and the waves were high and crashing into each other in white foam.

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After stopping for coffee in a tiny kiosk, we had lunch and pottered round some shops.  Then headed up the coast to Bridlington which could have been a different coastline altogether – the sea was out, exposing a huge expanse of sand and it was much gentler.

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Then we headed home, tired, through the snow dusted hills.